Who are you?
Let me rephrase.
Behind your duties as wife, mom, homeschooler, and friend, who are you?
Deep down inside your core.
In your heart.
All too often, we put on the mask of doting wife and mom. Lesson plans, field trips, and family meals are all we let people see.
Our social media pages are full of beautiful images and status updates of the wonderful lives we lead.
And you know what? Those things are all great!
However, its only a small portion of what makes you you.
We have all faced trials, joys, struggles, triumphs, love and heartache.
All of these things have shaped our lives in some way, and have had an impact on the people we are today.
The people on the other side of that device screen. Behind those perfectly posed photos, or eloquently written status posts.
We can all relate to one another in some way, shape or form.
If only we would take off the mask and let our hair down, so to speak.
And lets be honest. It’s nice to know that we are not alone.
So I ask again….
Who are you?
Perhaps I should start by answering my own question :
I am Kristi.
I am 36 years old.
I am wife to Jason, and mom to three beautiful boys.
I am a daughter, sister, aunt, and friend.
I am a teacher.
I am a musician.
I am a Christian.
I am creative.
I am an aspiring photographer.
I am a dweller, and internalizer. I have a hard time letting go.
(I may sing along with Queen Elsa, but it is nearly impossible for me to actually do.)
I am a perfectionist.
I am a people pleaser and peacemaker.
(I hate making others upset, and more often than not will just sit quietly instead of sharing my true thoughts.)
I am a fixer.
I am always battling feelings of failure and inadequacy.
I am the girl who longs to fit in and be liked.
I am an over-committer.
(I have a hard time saying “no”, which leads to overly scheduled days and stress.)
I am a person who has struggled with mild to moderate depression for most of my life.
I am a person who has struggled with an eating disorder.
I am a person who has made some very bad decisions in the past and now lives with regret.
I am someone who feels and loves deeply.
I am sensitive.
I am fiercely protective of my family.
And most importantly,
I am my Father’s daughter. A child of God.
I am redeemed by the blood of Christ.
I am called by name by a God who takes my broken mess and makes it whole.
I am loved.
Who are you, friend?
I am Kristi, and it’s nice to meet you.