I’m going to be completely honest with you.
I have felt like a complete and utter failure both this week and last.
My schedule has been filled to the brim with activity.
So full in fact, that we have been rushing through our lessons or simply neglecting them all together.
Instead of days full of in depth and engaging study, we have sporadic lessons shoved into our daily busyness.
My perfectly laid plans have gone to waste.
My beloved homeschool planner sits on a shelf under a pile of papers.
There is a mountain of dirty dishes in my sink.
There is an even larger mountain of laundry awaiting me.
There is grocery shopping to be done, meals to prepare, bills to pay.
And dare I say it, a bible that hasn’t been read in a few days, sitting on my desk.
I’m tired. I’m frustrated. I’m overwhelmed.
I feel like a failure………….
Isn’t life just like that though?
Whether you homeschool or not, things happen daily that can put a crimp in our plans.
We awaken with the whole glorious day mapped out, then that one thing sneaks in and derails the whole day.
Or in my case, a whole 2 weeks.
Whether it is an unexpected emergency, or an overly scheduled day, life happens.
And it can be difficult.
Sometimes even surprising.
As I sit here, every part of me wants to curl up in my nice warm bed, bury my head under the covers
and feel sorry for myself.
I want to hide.
And yet, these verses keep coming to mind :
“O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar.
You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O LORD, You know it all.
You have enclosed me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.”
Psalm 139 :1-6 NASB
You see, friend, although your day (and mine) may not have gone as planned,
Things may have happened recently that threw you off course,
but God knew.
None of this was a surprise to Him. None!
And guess what?
His plans are so much better than our own!
We are covered by Him!
He goes before us.
He’s got this!
Yes, life is tough. Yes, there are days when we just can’t do it all.
But friend, we were never meant to do it ALL.
Isn’t the beauty of homeschooling the flexibility?
So friend, if you find yourself in a similar place now, don’t fret.
You are not a failure!
Instead, rely on God.
Trust in the One who called you to this place.
“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”
Philippians 4:13 NASB
He’s got this!
He’s got you!
He’s got your family!
Ask Him for the strength to make it through each day. Then trust that He will equip you.
Do I worry that my children will fall behind due to our crazy life?
But I KNOW that God has called me to homeschool them.
There is not a shred of doubt in my heart.
I also know that God is going to complete HIS plan and purpose in each of my children with or without me, and with or without a jam packed schedule.
“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 1:6 NASB
Do I still want to hide under the covers?
Yes. But I won’t.
After all, what would that accomplish?
Instead I press on.
My life is still crazy and rushed at the moment, but I thank God for the life I have.
I can say with confidence that He’s in control.
I can pray with confidence for the strength to get me through today, and the wisdom and discernment in planning those days.
He has “enclosed us from behind and before“.
I can rest knowing that He’s got this!